Life is what I let it to be

Life is what I let it to be. In every moment I am presented with many choices. Choice to grow or die, choice to love or ignore, choice to judge or accept, choice to allow or resists, choice to fight or flight, choice to choose or wait.

In a world of constant demand and chaos, the ability to choose is true power. I am grateful for the gift of choice or freewill. We all have this power and we are constantly utilizing this power consciously or subconsciously.


It is a great power. And by the law of spider man movies we know

How I am feeling right now is directly related to the thoughts I am allowing to be processed in my mind right now. My life right now is directly related to the amount of the time I allow myself to feel good. So 'right now' is deciding my life and I am deciding my 'right now' by thinking.


Ultimately everything in life comes down to our thinking.As a man thinketh, so shall he become.


Life is trying to be many thing for us. Sometimes

• Life is a game
• Life is a war
• Life is sacred
  
• Life is flow
• Life is a test
• Life is a gift
• Life is .......

Life is what you let it to be.

Your norms scare me

Your norms scare me. I get nightmare. I know not much but little that I know tells me that ordinarily accepted world is a very ordinary place to live in. I fear ordinary life more than I fear uncertainty. 

Ordinary=Non-existent=Death

Man is a rope stretched between the animal and the Overman -Friedrich Nietzsche

This fear of norms has created a feeling inside me. An itch, a burn, a drive. And Now I shall not stop until I become superman(overman) or at least a better man.

 I feel this great burning sensation in my body, a feeling that where I am is not enough, what I am is not enough. I tried to define this feeling as frustration but frustrations do not get this intense. Imagine a red ball of fire inside your body where your Manipura chakra should be.

I like to believe that it as hunger, hunger for more. This feeling is good or bad I do not know yet. I hate the feeling but this is the feeling that gives me the courage to stand up for what I believe in, it provides me the drive to work on improving myself even when my body tells me to lie down and sleep, this is the force that pushes me to go beyond my needs and become more than a selfish fluid bag.

Blessing or a curse I wonder. I only know that before I developed this uncomfortable yet powerful hunger in my soul, I was a quitter. No worse than quitter I was static, I was reactive, I was waiting, I was dead. Now I am no better than before in lot of terms but I am moving, I am creating, I am taking control, I am living.

This intense mixed feelings of desire, depression, irritation and expectation is the single thing that differentiate me from my family, friends.This makes me who I am now. I want to see where does it take me?

9 Surprisingly Depressing Quotations From Fight Club

I love Fight Club. I often picture myself as Tyler. I sometime punch myself, it feels good, like meditation good. Keeps things in perspective. Even though the movie and the book has been helping me in terms of entertainment and being a bad ass some of (most of) it's quote can be really depressing. Here are Nine,

"You do the little job trained to do.
Pull a lever. Push a button.
You don't understand any of it, and you just die"


"Worker bees can leave. Even drones can fly away. The Queen is their slave."


"Then you're trapped in your lovely nest, and the things you used to own, now they own you."


"if you don't know what you want, you end up with lot you don't want"


"May I never be complete. May I never be content. May I never be perfect"

"You have to consider the possibility that God does not like you. He never wanted you. In all probability, he hates you."


"Nothing static. Everything is falling apart"


"Getting fired, is the best thing that could happen to any of us. That way, we'd quit treading water and something with our lives."