Your norms scare me

Your norms scare me. I get nightmare. I know not much but little that I know tells me that ordinarily accepted world is a very ordinary place to live in. I fear ordinary life more than I fear uncertainty. 

Ordinary=Non-existent=Death

Man is a rope stretched between the animal and the Overman -Friedrich Nietzsche

This fear of norms has created a feeling inside me. An itch, a burn, a drive. And Now I shall not stop until I become superman(overman) or at least a better man.

 I feel this great burning sensation in my body, a feeling that where I am is not enough, what I am is not enough. I tried to define this feeling as frustration but frustrations do not get this intense. Imagine a red ball of fire inside your body where your Manipura chakra should be.

I like to believe that it as hunger, hunger for more. This feeling is good or bad I do not know yet. I hate the feeling but this is the feeling that gives me the courage to stand up for what I believe in, it provides me the drive to work on improving myself even when my body tells me to lie down and sleep, this is the force that pushes me to go beyond my needs and become more than a selfish fluid bag.

Blessing or a curse I wonder. I only know that before I developed this uncomfortable yet powerful hunger in my soul, I was a quitter. No worse than quitter I was static, I was reactive, I was waiting, I was dead. Now I am no better than before in lot of terms but I am moving, I am creating, I am taking control, I am living.

This intense mixed feelings of desire, depression, irritation and expectation is the single thing that differentiate me from my family, friends.This makes me who I am now. I want to see where does it take me?