It is ok to feel like shit for it is a wake-up call.

When you feel like giving up, feel like nothing is working and things are in a downward spiral. Know that you are awake. Know that reality has finally caught up with you. Know that you have been tripping your balls off on some good drugs and now it’s time for hang over. Rejoice, celebrate.

When I used to feel bad I would go and watch TV, then I grew up. Now I read books or go on walks or try to count all the things that I am grateful for or may be meditate. But you know what it does not change the fact that I am feeling bad. I am feeling terrible and I want to destroy everything around me.

 I want to burn the world and all the shits of this world with it. Don’t get me wrong I am a good person. Almost as good as you but I can’t help it. I am awake. I am just awake. In this glorious moment of my anger and frustration I see the world as it is.  I see that all my friends are assholes, my loving family is rotten fish, my accomplishments are loads of crap, my girlfriend is a parasite, I am a delusional, judgmental, self-centered worm. Don’t think you are any better than me, I bet you are 100 times worse than me check that, 1000 times worse.    

Most people, even though they don’t know it, are asleep. They’re born asleep, they live asleep, they marry in their sleep, they breed children in their sleep, they die in their sleep without ever waking up.- ANTHONY DE MELLO

It is completely ok. It is ok to feel like shit. It is the best thing that can happen to anybody. Don’t fight it, don’t hold back, feel it, for it is freedom. Do not rationalize, do not divert attention, and don’t even listen. Be still and let the anger rise, sink in your depression, be there and it will show you what it was meant to show you.

Want a hint? It will show you an ugly world. See it. Would you rather sleep? Would you rather be in a broken dream?